Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Is it Just Me....


Has anyone ever said something very negative to you that just won't leave your mind. No matter how much others say it isn't true? 

I have this friend and she has a very bad habit of saying things without giving much thought to it. Then she apologizes like crazy when it comes back to bite her. I have told her many many times that no matter how much you say i am sorry it doesn't erase what was said or done. 

I lived with her and her husband twice. The second time was right after losing a job and I had no where else to go. She was the one at first that insisted that I move in. Then later calls me too say no i can't move in because she doesn't want me too. This caused me to explode because I was already under a ton of pressure. I did end up moving in with them and let me tell you it was a nightmare. I knew I was not wanted there so as soon as I found another job I moved out. 

This made her mad at me and I was like wait you didn't want me there to start with and now you are mad because I left. I now live with my best friend his wife and their son. I am never made to feel bad here I help and I am helped because that is what friends do. I lost my job again and they have never not once made me feel bad.  While my other friend writes on Myspace that I take unfair advantage of those closest too me. 

No I never took advantage of them. I helped around the house and I stay out of their way as much as possible. I gave them what money I could. It is just that I tend to treat people as they treat me. The people I live with now treat me like family. I spoil them both as much as I can and that is because they don't take things out on me, and they don't make me feel like I am a burden to them.  So in other words I give what I get.